Two Months: Night 30

Anyways. April was very good to you. Very. Everything that you set out to do, you did. Scholarships, university acceptance, graduation, your boyfriend said he wanted to be with you. Everything worked out on his own.

Although, at the moment, he is being a pain in the ass.

You asked him what’s up for tomorrow?


Two Months: Day 30, Part 2

Time to face the facts here.

That motherfucker is not going to call you back.

Now it is time to move on to other things. Fuck him.

You have better things to do.

Two Months: Day 30

Today was okay for you. You’re favorite part was probably eating snacks in biology class or sitting in creative writing.

To be honest, today you feel jittery and kind of socially awkward. Perhaps it’s the coffee or the weather or maybe your’re pmsing. I don’t know.

Afterwards, you saw your friend J and it was cool. he’s probably one of your closest friends right now. Maybe that was your favorite part of the day.

You were thinking about going on a picnic with your boyfriend. Although you tried to talk to him last night, all he said back was that he got the promotion the other day. he was tired now. Goodnight. And to be completely truthful, you hated his response. Does he say that to his other friends? What an asshole.

Regardless of that last message, you thought about going on a picnic with him. And you were telling J about it. The weather, in my opinion, is perfect for a picnic.

And you called that boy up about an hour ago. And he didn’t answer. Does he do that with his other friends? By friends, I just mean those others girls.

So you called him up, feeling a little defeated, to ask him about going out tomorrow. And with each minute that passes with no response, the less you care about picnics with him.

You’re a bit tired of giving him his space. Really though, you’re tired of space. And he’s not even treating you right. He’s not even saying anything to you.

No need though, you have so many other things going for you. Remember, you just got accepted to one of the top universities in the world to study your favorite subject.

Two Months: Night 29

You’re feeling really good after you wrote that character sketch.

Well, you told him you loved him too. You need him to always be honest. You really don’t like S.

Anyways, you love him. No big surprise there.

This break actually took a month like you expected in the beginning. That’s not really a surprise either.

I guess regular scheduling and all that resumes Friday?

A month can make you go a little crazy and then back again.

Two Months: Day 29, Part 2

And so he emails you and says he doesn’t want to play games anymore. You get mad, then he gets mad.

He loves you okay. Do you want to be with him or not? If you don’t, end it now. He doesn’t want to see you upset, he wants you to be happy.

You pick him every time.

Two Months: Day 29

Last night, you were jealous of M, whom your boyfriend liked right before he liked you. As a person though, you really like M.

This morning you were thinking about how he lied and how suddenly, you;re just going to accept it? What the hell? Maybe you really do need space. That motherfucker lied.

So you saw him today and he wasn’t with his friend. And he saw you and asked if you wanted to go to the school’s job fair.

In class today, you were teasing, saying he only asked you to come because his friend wasn’t there. And he was all ‘hey, why don’t you shut up’. So I think you pushed him and made him apologize.

And you two went together, got a lot of free cookies. It went good, when you didn’t talk to the person at the booth, he filled in the gaps.

And it was going good. Until you realized you wanted to tell him that you should continue the break. And so while you were walking with him on his way to class, you said you wanted to talk to him for two minutes. And he sensed your seriousness, and he said no. So you told him that maybe you should go longer than a week. I mean, he lied. (Meanwhile, your favorite professor is in the background talking to other people, while your boyfriend walks next to you grimly and tells you that if you don’t take your pamphlet, then he’s going to throw it away). And so he tells you that you ruined it. By ‘it’ he is referring to the easy going mentality of your relationship over the last few weeks. And after running into one of your classmates, he said he was going to go to class. And you said okay.

Honestly, it isn’t fair that you forgive him so fast. I mean, let’s not forget that you two broke up in January over old messages with his friend S, whom he claims isn’t even on his main list of people. If you rank above everyone else in his mind, why in the hell have his friends S and Z been a problem? Why in hell would he allow S to be such a fucking problem?

You don’t even feel sad anymore over him. You just thinks he’s idiot.

And you want him to know that what he did wasn’t right. It was so wrong.

So for now, you like the space. I think you need it. he shouldn’t have even said anything to you today.

Overall though, you had a pretty good day. Really though, you got like three cookies. And after you and him talked today, you didn’t even feel sad. You felt a little embarrassed though because that happened with your professor in the background. And damn, after your boyfriend went his way, you just went to class and ate your cookies. And to be honest, you didn’t really feel anything, no sadness, no nothing.

You went to the next class. Then talked to your teacher for a bit. Ran into this girl who you suppose likes your boyfriend. So to be honest, I think you acted really bitchy nice. Even though you just meant to be nice. Anyways, then you talked to her and her classmate, whom you know. And it went alright. She may be really shy. I don’t know. You said he was missing from their group. She was like yeah, she misses him. Hold up now, she also has another class with him. They probably don’t talk to each other really in the other class. Later on you were thinking about what she said as you channeled your inner-Mindy Kaling.

Then you did auditions for graduation.

And overall, today went pretty well. Now you just have a lot of damn homework. Ugggggh.

Two Months: Night 28

You’re feeling good tonight.

You do not have time to ponder over him at the moment, you have so much shit to do. Not that you hate it, but you seriously are just busy. And that’s alright. You’ll be missing him tonight, even though you’ll see him in the morning.

You finished up your speech and you’ll audition tomorrow.

The only thing actually missing is a shout out to him.

I’m not gonna lie right now, everything is going extremely well for you. They say it’s crazy how a year changes everything. Yes, it does. But a month, a month can change everything. That’s even crazier.