You are unsure of where he fits, yet you are feel as if he will have a big impact on which school you choose.
If in the end you choose to stay, it may be because of him. If you decide to go, it may be because you are running away.
You are unsure if your bond is strong enough for long distance. You feel as if your relationship is too brittle at the moment to ask this question. At the moment, you are scared about cheating in general. You’re ready to accuse him because you are scared.
You want to wait and talk to him when you two feel stronger, when the bond feels tight. You must talk to him soon though.
You want to go to the big university and you want him too.
You want him to say he can go the distance. You want him to say he can be faithful. You want him to say he’s going to get a car.