Two Months: Night 9

You’re doing okay right now.

You are, by the way, totally pmsing. And you do kinda hate him right now, you don’t even feel the need to talk to him right now because you just hate everything he did. And you ate all of those friends of his. That fucker. You hate that he was fucking lied all that time. And you hate that he’s been driving you crazy. And you hate that he doesn’t want to talk to you right now. What does he have to think about? You love him still. So what the fuck is his problem?

Anyways, you’re moving forward. I think you have that clear in your head: You don’t make the first move anymore. Never again. Just keep going and leave him the fuck alone. You don’t need him. And let’s be real. He’s a loser. And it’s kinda fucking amazing that someone like you would want someone like him when no lie, any guy could be better than him. Fuck, but you miss him. And that’s yours right there.

But maybe in time you’ll realize, there is so much out there besides him. And if he’s really meant to be with you, he’ll do something about it. Chase the fuck out of you, something amazing like that.

So be patient. Only time will tell.

Hey, just keep going forward.

Why don’t you tell me that ‘if the girl had been worth having she’d have waited for you’? No, sir, the girl really worth having won’t wait for anybody.”
F. Scott Fitzgerald, This Side of Paradise

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